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far away from my memories.
Journal Entry: Wed Jul 16, 2008, 2:56 PM
Mood: Jealous
Listening to: Butterflies and Hurricanes by Muse
Due to some recent happenings, I feel the need to take a break and take some time for myself. However I will return, but this is something that's important for me to do, to clean myself out emotionally and get a clear mind.
I will most likely be gone a week, possibly more or less, depending on circumstances and how I'm feeling.
Notes and emails are always welcome, though I will be unable to read them until I return.
This break will begin on Friday and go on as long as it needs to.
Hi there folks! Finally the gorgeous summer weather has hit us, yay! I've been waiting for this weather a long time, I'm very happy to be waking up and have the sun shining and it's HOT. Beautiful.
Okay, so here's the scoop. I will be leaving for Orlando, FL on Wednesday, the 2nd of July! Staying until the 16th of July, two weeks. I'm really excited.
I'll be meeting up with =ChiliSan at some point, I hope. (: My friends and I are going to Sea World and to check out Aquatica Sea World's Waterpark!
Lots of exclamation points in this journal. Haha.
So I probably won't be online for those two weeks, try to not miss me too much! I will do my best to keep in contact with those of you who are extra important to me.
So, give me your cell numbers if you want a phone call and I will do my best to accommodate!
I just figured I'd fill you all in on that so you don't wonder where I am for two weeks.
Have a great start to your summer!
PS: Is anyone else having trouble with the mood section of the journal?
*SPECIAL FEATURE*
So I've been meaning to give =Danelaw a feature for a while, so here you go buddy! Your very own exclusive feature.
Hi guys! It's been a while since my last journal and I thought I'd give myself a kick in the butt and do up a new one. So here we go again with the madness and brilliance that is life, so I'll be in Portland, Oregon for a weekend soccer tournament starting the 27th of June and going on until the 29th of June, from the 29th onward to an undecided date thus far, I will be visiting with `Nestalgica and =GoaliGrlTilDeath, possibly also ~starsaftersunset. I've been looking forward to this trip and these meetings for months and I'm so excited that the dates are finally coming to arrive soon and making all of this a reality. I have found it so amazing the way that I've been able to bond with such an incredible person from this distance, yet feel like I know so much. I've never felt this way in my entire life, never have I met someone who I feel so deeply connected to, someone who understands me and someone who I can just BE with. It's wonderful and beautiful, I love every moment and I wouldn't trade a second of time for any of the moments.
I've also been looking for some work, part-time for the summer, just kind of as a side to what I do now. Maybe something less fast paced and more relaxed, I'm looking into employment with the Comox Valley SPCA, the pay is low, but anything that involves working with animals can have me looking past the wages. I don't really need the extra money anyway, I guess just to be able to do some side saving as well would be nice. Well, I guess I actually do need the money, to be able to pay for the $65,000 tuition at MSU (Michigan State University), which is a rather intimidating number to say the least.
That's all for now folks, just wanted to catch you all up a bit.
Are you far away in a new life? Are you wearing the same dress that you wore when we met the first night? Are you feeling it in a different time? Are you telling the same jokes that you told me when we met the first time? The first time how we slept with the light on And the sun's coming up and we woke up on the floor Everything that you feel that you can't describe Why can't it be like the first week? Am I far away in your thoughts sometimes? Are you telling your friends that you can't live without him like we met the first time? Do you lie awake and wonder why? Is it always the same thing or is this just a new dream that's keeping you up at night The first time how we slept with the light on and the sun's comin up and we woke up on the floor all the things that you feel that you can't describe why can't it be like the first week? I've been up and down your street calling your house I won't wait up till you get home i just maybe better off alone The first time how we slept with the light on and the sun's comin up and we woke up on the floor all the things that you feel that I can't describe why can't it be... The first night how we slept with the light off All the stars shine above And all our clothes are on the floor All the things that I feel that I can't describe Why can't it be like the first week?
Reading: You Suck: A Love Story by Christopher Moore
NEWS
Here we come upon the end of May, a lot happened within this month. For one thing, I finally know what it feels like to be loved, truly and fully, I have never felt so happy in my entire life. Except maybe that time with the endless ice cream...But that's another story. I am beginning to find myself, discover who I really am as a person and I can tell you; it's been one hell of an amazing journey. I have various people to thank for helping me along the way, when I fell down, you helped me stand once more and were and always are of constant support. So, Caiti, Chris, and Max, thank you so much. Also, thank you to the rest of you who have helped me more subtly, I sincerely appreciate it. Also this month, well starting June, but it was brought up to me in May; I will soon be a concert photographer, along with still doing portraits here. This is very exciting for me, as I love music and I really enjoy saving those memories in photo form.
In other news, Sunday is the first of June and I'm trying to decide whether I should go to do the Anberlin & Mae concert shoot in Seattle, or stay home. Decisions, decisions...HELP ME DECIDE! D:
FEATURES
I decided that I would showcase my three favorite parts of the body; eyes, jaw/lips and neckline/clavicle.
And just for good measure:
EPIC MUSIC
Here's My Hello by Blake Lewis
You turn me on Now don't turn it off Cause I don't want to fade out tonight. Your lips are the sweetness, Your body's the sin. A single touch and my skin is electrified.
One kiss, two hearts beat in time.
Here's my hello. Don't say goodbye. Do you want me? Just stay here with me tonight. Look in my eyes, you can't deny me, no. Here's my hello. Don't say goodbye. You taunt me. I'll stand here waiting for you. I lose my mind. Here's my hello, don't say goodbye.
Can't get a grip now I'm in too deep. Give me a taste of your love Then you're gone How can I catch you and swallow you whole. With a sway of your hips I lose control.
One kiss, two hearts beat in time.
Here's my hello. Don't say goodbye. Do you want me? Just stay here with me tonight. Look in my eyes, you can't deny me, no. Here's my hello. Don't say goodbye. You taunt me. I'll stand here waiting for you. I lose my mind. Here's my hello, don't say goodbye.
Can't stop thinking about you. Don't start without me We cannot proceed unless I Put a lock on the door Throw away the key. Just stay here with me Under the sheets..
One kiss, two hearts beat in time.
Here's my hello. Don't say goodbye. Do you want me? Just stay here with me tonight. Look in my eyes, you can't deny me, no. (You can't deny me) Here's my hello. Don't say goodbye. You taunt me. I'll stand here waiting for you. I lose my mind.
I'm off on a bit of an adventure this weekend, for the Victoria Day Long Weekend. To Victoria off all places! I'm going to visit my friend, Charlie and his daughter, we're going to stay with some friends at their lake house for the weekend, we're also going for a birthday party, so lots of fun. (: Tons of barbeque's and parties of sorts, I'm quite excited. (:
Along with the parties and endless food, there will also be...Wait for it...
FIREWORKS!
PS: I'll update this with features and music when I get home. Because my computer is being rather silly at the moment.
EDIT.
I had my appendix removed this morning and I haven't been doing much since then. Except eating unsolid food. This is lame, very very lame. My side is still sore and now itchy, I blame the stitches.
In other more exciting and happy news.
I'm going to Shawnigan lake tomorrow for a birthday party and to visit some friends. Hanging out by a lake, in the summer sun, reading. So perfect.
I have been severely missing a certain person since I left, but I have been so happy, which is something new for me. I love this happiness, I feel so alive and...Complete. Life is amazing at the moment and it can only get better.
FEATURES
EPIC MUSIC
Come Home by OneRepublic
[Verse 1] Hello world Hope you're listening Forgive me if I’m young For speaking out of turn There’s someone I’ve been missing I think that they could be The better half of me They’re in the wrong place trying to make it right But I’m tired of justifying So i say you’ll..
[Chorus] Come home Come home Cause I’ve been waiting for you For so long For so long And right now there's a war between the vanities But all i see is you and me The fight for you is all I’ve ever known So come home Oh
[Verse 2] I get lost in the beauty Of everything i see The world ain’t as half as bad As they paint it to be If all the sons If all the daughters Stopped to take it in Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin It might start now..Yeahh Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud Until then
[Chorus] Come home Come home Cause I’ve been waiting for you For so long For so long And right now there's a war between the vanities But all i see is you and me The fight for you is all I’ve ever known Ever known So come home Oh
[Interlude] Everything i can’t be Is everything you should be And that’s why i need you here Everything i can’t be Is everything you should be And that’s why i need you here So hear this now
[Chorus] Come home Come home Cause I’ve been waiting for you For so long For so long And right now there's a war between the vanities But all i see is you and me The fight for you is all I’ve ever known Ever known So come home Come home.
June is going to be an epic epic month, for various reasons which I will inform you of.
On June 1st I will be attending a concert in Seattle, WA to see Mae & Anberlin, hopefully `Nestalgica will be accompanying me, and that will just be a wonderful experience. Because A.) I will be going to see two bands I love B.) I would be going with someone I also love. Therefore, you just can't lose in that situation.
Mae & Anberlin @ Nectar Lounge Seattle, WA Sunday, June 1st 2008 @ 8PM Tickets $18
EVERYONE BE JEALOUS!
In other epic news for June, I will be going to Portland, OR to play a soccer game with my team. Then going to Newport, OR with ~strikersmuse to go to the beach and have a party. Hooray partyyyy.
FEATURES
EPIC MUSIC
Alexithymia by Anberlin
Don't try to wake me up Even if the sun really does come out tomorrow Don't believe anything you say Anymore, in the morn, in the morning Bricks to this old house are breaking Steel would have weathered but now forlorning It's alarming how loud the silence screams No warn, no warn, no warning Addictions fill the table where the family used to sit And conversate Conversate to the sounds To the sounds of a record player With it's jumping needle and the lights that grow dim over time
With downcast eyes There's more to living than being alive With downcast eyes There's more to living than being alive
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far away from my memories. 
Jealous
Eager
Adoration
Passionate
This is lame, very very lame. My side is still sore and now itchy, I blame the stitches. 
Euphoric
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